Much has happened... - Originally written September 18, 2023

 So, I just realized that I hadn't updated my blog for five or six months. During this time I had a scare with my cat and had an unexpected vet visit...but all is well. This happened the same day I was awaiting the results of my first CT scan since starting my cancer treatment with the Kisqali, Letrozole, and Zoladex injection. I know, perfect timing, right?

My primary breast cancer as well as my mets in other areas of my body were all improved. I received those results on June 21, 2023. Since then I've had my second CT on September 5, 2023, and there's been even more improvement. On both scans, different growths show as barely visible and no further spread. Significant shrinkage on the main breast tumour. I'm not sure about the second smaller one in my breast, but I'll have to ask about it next time I see my oncologist. On September 6 it marked the second anniversary since Mark's passing and I'm just as in love with him now as I was when he passed away. I still cannot believe that only a year and a half after his death I got diagnosed, not just with breast cancer, but stage four metastatic breast cancer. It's still surreal to me. If one thing can be said about me...I don't have great luck and never have.

On his birthday over the summer, I donated two copies of my book to The Grace Centre rehab in Harbour Grace after they said they welcomed the donation. (This was where Mark had wanted to go again but never got the chance.) Things are not easy, but they feel a lot better than they were. I always put the disclaimer that I don't know how long these medications will continue to work because I'm paranoid if I assume that they will, then they won't. I know...it's superstitious.

Back to the book...

It's unfortunate how much my province pushes alcohol culture on people. I've said many times we're a lot like Ireland in that respect. We're also the most alcoholic province in Canada. It's like we like to create the problem and then not help those who are victims of it. No one knows they're going to become an alcoholic when they take their first drink. Sadly, the resources and understanding of alcoholism are less than wonderful and I hope to see a change soon. God willing.

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