It's breast cancer... -Originally written February 7, 2023

 In my first blog I mentioned how I had a breast biopsy as I'd found a lump in November. Well, the pathology report came back...it's breast cancer. They're saying locally advanced breast cancer. I saw my surgeon this morning...he said type 2B and maybe even stage 3. They're not quite sure yet. I get a CT scan tomorrow evening, and I need a bone scan and a breast MRI. They're hoping to have it all back not by this Friday, but the next.

One word came up today that truly terrified me...and that was chemotherapy. He said usually with a lump this large (7 cm) they give chemo to reduce the size of it before providing surgery of any kind. I...am scared to death of chemotherapy. As I mentioned in my book I have a phobia of nausea and vomiting. By the Grace of God, I dealt with it with Mark because I loved him so much...I don't know how love was able to accomplish that but it did. But going through it myself is a whole different ball game. I am very scared.

I did find out it's Estrogen and Progesterone that's causing the lump...it's hormone driven. Not HER2 or triple-negative breast cancer (the worst kind, really.) This was good news to me but chemo still scares the crap out of me. I don't know how I'm going to handle all of this. Since I did that first blog I figured I may as well do the update. I sometimes wonder when life will just be calm and happy. I'm starting to feel like a character in Les Miserables. The story is aptly titled. It hasn't even been a year and a half since Mark passed and here I am...going to the Health Sciences for all kinds of tests and God only knows what in the future.

2023...so far you are an asshole. But I'm not really shocked. Things just seem to get worse and worse. All I can do now is listen to my oncology team and pray to the Lord that this go smoothly and I will beat this and be all the stronger for it.

Updates to come I guess...

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